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Having illness is something that each and everyone wouldnt want including me....however, i was born with this inherited skin disease known as eczema!! Eversince 7 years old, my skin begin to show the symptoms of eczema....well it does not really affect me much during my school days until i enter university...Flare ups are bashing on me, skin itchy, red, burning pain, dry....causing me a WHOLE LOT of mental and emotional distress...sometimes i wish i was dead!! Fzew weeks back, my skin got very worse, i think my whole body looks like a tree bark!! With scratch marks, scars, wounds and hyperpigmentation, now both of my hands are involved...

I find it hard to walk, i find it hard to bend my knee and hand, i find it hard to pray, i find it hard to sleep when the whole leg is itchy and full of burning pain...i tried many creams, antihistamines even steroid injection...but all these offers temporary relief...I AM SO DESPERATE for EVERLASTING HEALING.....only God can provide this!! Lord, i dun wan my eczema to just go off just a few weeks, i want permanent healing....Please sustain me during this time.....no matter how pain or how stress i become i will still choose to worship and trust u..........no matter how hard no matter how itchy and uncomfortable i am, i will still have faith in u.......just sustain me and heal me................................

I need answers

I got many questions in mind about church, cg etc...whoever read this please leave some opinions to enlighten me as well as Bible Verses to support it..thanks

Q1. What is actually the main priority to focus in a cg? Spiritual growth or numerical growth?

Q2. Does the growth in numbers in the cg is equal to the growth of their spirituality as well?

Q3. If you know your leader is misleading in certain matters, should we just continue to keep quiet and obey? *Bible says must respect authority and kenot rebel against them* * BIble also says we should fear God but not man* So which one leh?

Q4. WHat would you think are the factors which will contribute to the growth of cg?

Q5. Do you agree that building each other spirituality takes time?

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I am lost cox i dunno where i am standing in Christ

I am confused of what is Gods plan for me

I am discouraged and disappointed by the ppl ard me,

I am worried...

I am frustrated with myself

I am not a good cell grp leader...

I serve until it overwhelmed me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually..

I havent take my sabbath rest for months i think,

I just felt like quiting.....

How i wish i could just be a normal person....

Life's a choice

I have to repeat my forensic exam on 23rd March...

I have to prepare datas for the two houseman (prp) project..

I have to prepare for the sharing this coming cg on fri...

I am now on my last day of oncall week..

Life's a choice. We make choices every second. Choices of what to wear, what to eat, what to do next, next book to read,.....The choices we make can be either a positive one or a negative one...

I am overwhelmed with many "things"...Sumhow i felt burden...Two choices i am faced with...is to either to indulge in my worries and getting depress all about it OR to trust in God and surrender all my work into His hands....

Just feeling

overwhelmed....
with responsibilities...
with expectations....
disappointments...
physical sickness....

My spirit is fighting hards against my flesh...

No strength...

There are times when i really felt like escaping, but i knew You put me at such place at such timing for Your purpose to be fulfilled....

I want to do it by Your strength, by Your grace..

Because Your's is sufficient for me...

New Toy

I need a PDA phone....

HTC DIAMOND

* with higher resolution but expensive*

or

HTC TOUCH-DUAL!!??

HTC gadgets are not bad...Have been readin good reviews bout their products...

But then eventually,

PDA phones oftens crashed in a year time..if lucky enuff prob 2 years..if lucky la..!!

Was thinking about Blackberry phones....

Hahahahha...

KEDAI FARMASI!!

Yup!! Itz my 3rd week here..kinda enjoying it...cox this is where i am able to put my mouth to full use - TALK!!! Haha...I luv to talk...thats y i luv to counsel patients...:P The colleagues here in Kedai are very nice...Though we houseman made mistakes, nevertheless they still give us words of encouragement..Thumbs up to kak Ruby,Kak Atie, Normah n Kak Ani..Working here in Kedai can really make me loose weight...hahah...cox i have to walk a lot filling in prescriptions and counseling etc...One more thing, i even know how to play with the cash register too...itz kinda fun swiping the credit cards..*i sound like sooo ulu now*...

Being here really put my patience into test as well, especially when there are rude customers...kinda understand their frustrations lar...Well, being sick is already so frustrating, but when they found out the price of their medications, they LAGI FRUSTRATED!!! So in the end, we are the tempat to letak their frustrations and anger lor...some will complain, some will just scold you, and throw paper bags right in front of you..fuhhh.sabar...sabar..

I recalled a patient which kinda saddens me la where there's this pakcik who could not afford a RM12 medication!!...He was trying to dig his wallet for the Rm1 notes, but then tak cukup duit.Some pay their medications until not much left for taxi money....Well he is not the only one, everyday there will be some patients who would go home without medication just becox they could not afford them....how i wish i could really give the pakcik more discount..unfortunately i can't, cox i would go against the hosp policy... and if other patients found out, they would run after me!!!!Habisla!!

Neway, this year will be a great year...New resolutions, new hopes, new goals to achieved, spiritually and etc...One of my new resolutions is to reduce frequency of late nite supper...Haha..I pray that this year will be a year of breakthrough for me, my family, GEPC and my friends...I pray that our walk with Him will continue to be strengthen and the passion for Him and His people will continue to burn as long as we live...Woohoo!!! AMEN!!

That's all He need from us...

Was lying on my bed asking God...

Me: So God, Christmas coming ady, so what present U want?
God: I just want your heart, thats all...

Unfortunately for the past years of Christmas celebrations, the true meaning of Christmas somehow seems to fade away behind all the feastings, parties, santa claus, christmas presents...Christmas is the time of celebration...but what is this celebration all about?
Is about the birth of Jesus Christ, a good news for everyone...a Saviour of our souls were born...It is time to focus on the cross, and what Christmas is all about...Is ALL about JESUS!!!

HAPPIE BURPDAY JESUS!!!

WHere?

Wheres my passion?

Wheres my determination?

Wheres my confidence?

Wheres my boldness?

WHERE?? WHERE? WHEREEE..??

So lost...

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Come Holy Spirit, fall afresh on me,

Fill m e with Your Power...

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Lord please remove the stress from me,

You say O Lord that we should not worry,

for worryin does not add a single hour to our life,

i know that every day You will watch over me,

however i felt that i didnt put much trust in You,

I'm sorry...i have let the fear get hold of me,

Lord, please remove this burden away from me...

Much more than I could bear

What could I say!?? The life and death of the patient is in my hands..Every word I said, every action i do, every decision made counts!!....Everyday I come to work with a heavy heart, tired body and mind....Darts of pressure are firing from every corner,...*Sigh heavily*...I felt like running away...So overwhelming...so overwhelmin.............Sometimes i think that i myself is exaggerating, taking things too seriously...what could i say??? It is my job!!! God, please sustain me...the stress is too overwhelming...my knees are weaker n weaker...

Gonna........

anytime....!

INDULGENZE!!!

Over the past few weeks, I have been indulging endlessly.

Stomach has been working pretty hard actually...

Let the pics tell the stories...

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ZANMAI SUSHI, Mid Valley Gardens

*4 TIMES in less than 3 weeks!!*

Had a farewell for Sze Yan n Sifu CHin...

Brought the gals here for a treat!



More pics....


Times Square with Bestie n Sara


Sara's Burfday at *La Qiao* aka Chillis!!

Lamb SHoulder...*ma ma tei only-lah*

Beef Bacon Burger..

Then...GELATO time...

In the end,

My wallet lose weight,

But i add weight pulak!!!

:P

When Boy Meets Girl...

Well, is a hot topic of the season...got bang with this questions many times: "Christina, got boyfriend a not?", "Christina, when u getting married ar?" " Christina, so when you getting boyfriend ar?"..hehehe

I am now at the so called "marriage" age...some of my friends are getting married..Congratz to them...:)...So now lets jump into something for us to ponder okies...

Relationship, engagement, marriage...This are issues that every single person, be it a girl or boy that need to considered properly, becox it involves one of the most important organ of the human: THE HEART!!! Emotions are something that we can't really play with. Unfortunately many take it for granted or seems to be ignorant bout it...Many seems to be irresponsible of their actions and speech towards the opposite sex, creating unwanted hurts that can be avoided if there were understanding/knowledge of what relationship is all about...Haihs...Through out the years, i have been observing breakups, cries of people becox of RELATIONSHIP!!! Many are left with a brokenheart caused by, like i mentioned earlier, ignorant dudes n dudettes..Well, when it comes to relationship, we should be cautious to whom should our heart be given to, if no we have to bear the consequences of the decisions we made...



Well, the only guy who can have my heart is the one who

• is not necessarily handsome-lah
• loves God more than himself or anyone else
• accepts me for who I am
• able to commit himself into this relationship
• have a willingness to admit his mistakes and change
• is able to lead and make decisions
• is able to put others needs above himself

A beautiful character will be the main attraction, not necessarily the charm of the person's looks...If love is based on looks, then in 50 years time, will u be still attracted to ur partner or will u let ur partner's character and attitude be the bridge between both of u even when your skin starts to show signs of wrinkle and aging? Well thats something to ponder-lah...BYEZ

What does a pharmacist do?

Well, we are not just dispensers of medications behind the counter........


We, pharmacist:

• screen through prescriptions to check and make sure the medications together with the doses prescribed by the doctor are correct.
• provide patient counseling on their diseases and medications *inpatient and outpatient*
• conduct Therapeutic Drug Monitoring especially on drugs like Vancomycin, Digoxin, Theophyline, Aminoglycoside antibiotics, together with determining their doses and advising the doctors on the medication regimen.
• answer doctor/nurses/other pharmacist/patient/public query on medications *Drug Info Centre*
• supplying medications to outpatient and inpatient.
• supply dangerous drugs, like morphine, cocaine, psychotropic medications to patients
• conduct Cytotoxic Drug Reconstitution *cancer drugs* and preparing TPN bags
• conduct clinical case clerking to follow up with the patient and intervene in any medication error...
• involve in the purchasing of all medications for the hospital
• conduct raid in pharmacies or places which perform any illegal drug business and bring them to court *Drug Enforcement*

Well, dun get me wrong..I'm not trying to be so proud here..just sharing with those who seems to be ignorant about the jobscope of a pharmacist...

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Neway got a MC today, waited for such a long time to see the doc in Klinik Warga...got rashes all over my body and migrane...Must be the post effect of working...Physically tired..Gotta rest...

Pondering

A crossroad of decisions...

A clash between Yours n my desires...

A battle of the mind..

A willingness to obey,

A change of heart....

U noe Lord...U noe...

Reminiscence!!

3 days ago...I was officially 23!! Yup!! 23!! Still young n hotz....!! Celebrating burfday this year was kinda different, cox my 5 buddies are not here!!! Chatted with Dollie 3 weeks bak on her burfday, and yea, she felt the same as i did...:P

Was browsing thru my pics file, and yea...truly miss the crazy n fun times we had bak in uni...Oh...i miss u guyz man...Here r some pics for ur entertainment....

Steamboat mania

Public Health Campaign

Our first encounter with mice and i murdered *accidentally* one of them...

Plain crazy

At TGIF

Teapotz Burfday..

Rach's burfday

Err...speechless..

Sab's way of acting cool always keeps me wondering...til now..!!

Burfday facial treatment!!!

Tryin to "entertain" me

Well it works!!

Lincah Gengz 003

We fight wherever we r...

....even in public!!! :P

Few minutes later...fren balik!!

Wanted to show more pics, but some is in the other lappy...next time la...Til then..

Give and receive the Best

If you want the best from God, you gotta give Him your best!!!

I experienced God today!!!

WOOHOO!!! God is GOOD!!! He is faithful!! He helped me this morning to recover and traced back the missing ampoules. EVERYTHING IS TALLY!!! Hooray!!! Hallelujah!!! As Hebrew 11:6 mentioned when we have faith, God will reward us in return. Indeed it is true!! I stand in awe of You Lord. You are so amazing. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!! I praise Your Name Lord God Almighty, You are my comforter, my deliverer, my strength!!! Thank You for Your grace each and everyday. I can survived solely because of You...You are ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL!!!

Helpless

Thats what i am feeling now...3 hours ago, 20 over ampoules of DD were MISSING!!! The amount in the record book does not match the physical stock i counted!! What went wrong!!?? I absolutely have no idea...I had try my best to double check everything...Today 25 wards indented DD today...I have been counting ampoules like gila and supplying them from 8am to 5pm non stop...At the end of the day, when i just do some stock check count, it does not tally!!! Helpless as I am rite now all i can do is pray. What I could hold on to rite now is:

Philippians 4: 6-7: Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer n petition, with thanksgiving present ur request to God, and the peace of God which transcends all understandings will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus

2 Corinthians 1:9-10 Indeed in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on oursleves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliever us..

O God, I felt so helpless rite now. And theres no point for me to worry, for u say that we should not worry bout the things tomolo. The only thing i can do rite now is to pray n trust u to guide me in tracing back the ampoules. I commit tomorrow into Your hands. I pray for Your protection and give me strength O God to face everyday challenges. AMEN!!

P:S: God will make a way, when theres seem to be no way!!

Makan Schedule

Food connects people... :) Thatz y i love enjoyin fellowshippin with my frenz through MAKAN!!

Thus, my schedule for the month

• 15th Nov - Dim Sum Breakfast with Sara, prob Sharon n Flora..
• 16th Nov - Dinner with colleagues at Le Meridien Hotel, KL *free summore cox got a seminar there*
• 26th Nov - Makan celebration with my ex Lincah hsemates in conjuntion with the end of their finals...prob taking them out for seafood la cox they missed seafood so much...
• Sumwhere in the end of Nov - JOGOYA Jap Buffet, Starhill or SHOGUN Jap Buffet, Sunway Pyramid...hmmm....still deciding...

Thoughts of today!!!

SO far 5 weeks ady i have been working...This is what i have to learn:

• Face new task without fear or anxiety a.k.a kan cheongness...
• Think Fast
• Act Fast
• Solve problem in a more organized way
• To be confident in whatever job handled

by Gods strength, wisdom, n joy!!

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Today i manage to finish my stock check by 12.30pm..So happie...Tepukz tangan!!! Previously i finished at 5pm!!! Big Sifu is proud!!! He say i inherited his skills...kononnye...perasan...But then Big sifu memang efficient in handling his task. He can finish all indents from the wards and stock check on the same day!! Superman!!! FUH!!! Big sifu n Sze Yan is leaving liao...Sob sob..Hope u guys get KL la...then next time can go yum cha..But then prob Big sifu will get thrown to sempadan cox he did stg previosuly!! Hahahhaha!!!...

Till then.....