I dun wanna work

It's June now...still waiting for the arrival of the letter of my posting. Initially I was really afraid to where I will get posted, but now the actual fear itself is to WORK!!! I seriously TAK MAU BEKERJA...Scared...scared...I have to face sick patients and death nearly every single day..Not only that, the life and death of the patients is in our hands...I'm not mentally prepared yet...Sometimes it made me wonder why did I ever took up pharmacy...oh the doubt!!!